holiday

I’m finally back in singapore :) and i feel very happy to be home.. Last night, i stayed home and i cnt describe how happy i was though my dinner was just maggie mee with egg..plus there was Narnia on channel 5…( Aslan totally owned the ice queen ) good movie+ comforting dinner + cool humid air = happpyburpy.

nevertheless one thing i regretted was the fact that i didnt make the best use of my time in melbourne.. was just thinking about the past 4 months and i think i’ve missed out on way too much. i guess i did learn my lesson and yeah this time, being back home in singapore, i  actually have ‘work’ to do..i need to start praying for OCF next yr.. being in committee means that i need to be really intentional and really grounded in order to achieve the vision that our comm has for OCF.I need to finish reading the training workbook and kind of prepare the biblestudymaterials for next yr…and because OCF is all about reaching out, building up and sending back, i know i need alot of guidance and divine wisdom from God cos i dnt want my own “stupidity” to um…ruin or hinder anyone’s spiritual walk and understanding of God..And being home for the past couple of days i feel so distracted by so many things already.. mm but ok la got to be discipline..i guess during this time, there’ll be manymany temptations that i face but i hope by wrestling with such things before God, he will use this time to ‘discipline’ and teach me some impt lessons that will strengthen me and guard me.. and of course..i hope people like CHARLES will step up to be celll leader (COUGH COUGH. charles, dnt pretend u didnt read this..but ok la.. PRAY ABOUT IT!) and mm facilitate good+fruitful discussion.. i guess these things can really help ocf grow closer as a family + grow to become stronger spiritually :)

ok aside frm OCF plans for next yr+prayer…I really plan to catch up with so so so many more friends and family members. I’m gng to spend most of my time just hanging out + chitchatting + doing totally nonsensical but fun stuff with them. i’m gng to draw+paint+color more..and i’m gng to bake more. im not gng to waste my time here slothing…i will do things and i will make use my time wisely.. yes..and i really hope to do things for people for often..yeah i dnt want to be selfish and do things for myself all the time anymore. and im going to READ my boooks.

mm i think i have many more plans. but we’ll seeeee…and i cant wait…ION with halk tmr :D haha

dog tired

one of the things i might do with my futuredog just to entertain myself.. (:

maybe

maybe i’ll just get this if they have it in sg..in 4 days time, i’llll be back home till late feb. awesome posssum :D

…

at least i wont be the only grouch at home.

prettty

i could lounge in this room all. day. long.

bigbig love

CAMBODIA IS LOVE.

one day in the house of God is better than a thousand days in the world..

this is so so true..

Provider

For quite a long while, i’ve been quite worried about ‘what to do’ with my bedframe and my couch after i move out (since the new place is fully furnished) and i was really worried cos 1) i dont really want to throw them away! my bedframe is very pretty okay…. 2) the couch is so…comfy..what a pity to dump it. 3) i cant seem to find buyers for the bedframe, the couch, the washing machine and the fridge.. but anyway im pretty sure God knew about how worried I was and even though I know people say Trust in God, dont worrry…etc, i think ‘worrying’ over something is sometime that’s very ‘natural’ and yeah being human, i cannot help but worry about those issues.. Nevertheless, i told God that i am sure He knows how worried I am and i prayed that he will see it through…and I just prayed that he will take care of it. but deeepdeeep downdown, i was still worried though I had the hope. But today’s prayer meeeting was so so refreshing..it’s been a while since i saw ocf caulfield peeps and ya felt so comfy to be back :) haha really felt at home :) mm anyway after prayer meeting…jinn came to me and said he doesnt mind taking my couch; ashley asked me if she could buy my bedframe; robin didnt mind buying the fridge… It’s not like I bugged them or pestered them to take it from me..i dont even think I mentioned it to them at all…yet..things just happened :D this is definitely God at work. I cannot describe it in words but…yeah time and again i’ve failed to acknowledge God has authority over all situations and circumstances and despite my ‘little faith’ in Him, he still chooses to be so so so so so faithful and despite how much I honestly dont deserve this providence, He still chooses to provide for me. He still chooses to be patient with me and he is ever so faithful..

I think i’ve learnt alot just from today alone. And oh ya, just a word of (i guess) ‘encouragement’ to some people..i dunno but after Jinn shared about how he feels about ‘backsliding’ and being far/unworthy of God’s love, i guess it’s ‘normal’ to feel this way. I have a tendency to feel like i am really undeserving of God’s grace and sometimes I just feel like I shldnt seek Him cos I would probably get a bigfat spiritualslap from Him  .. especially during the assignment period when I tend to place Him in my schedule under the ‘if-i-have-the-time-list instead of the ‘Priority’ list. It’s something i am not proud of and something I know God is never pleased with..but He still chooses to be faithful through it all…despite my unfaithfulness to Him. sometimes we might feel like we dont deserve God and we dont deserve His love but the truth is…God is just waiting for us to run to Him. He will always pursue us.. Every single human being is precious in his eyes and He loves us way tooo much to let us go. So…i guess maybe it’s time to stop running away but to run back into His arms of love that never stopped reaching out for us.

S.C.C-Please only You

I don’t like what I’m finding in my heart
So many different voices call
And I try hard to please them all
I run in circles ’til I fall
So I’m falling on my knees and praying

Please, Please, Please only You, only You
Please, Please, Please take my heart, and make it true
Let everything I say and everything I do
Please, please only You
Please only You

Comforting song..

Believe Me Now– By Steven Curtis Chapman

I watch you looking out across the raging water
So sure your only hope lies on the other side
You hear the enemy that’s closing in around you
And I know that you don’t have the strength to fight
But do you have the faith to stand and…

Believe Me now
Believe Me here
Remember all the times I’ve told you loud and clear
I am with you and I am for you
So believe Me now
Believe Me now

I am the One who waved my hand and split the ocean
I am the One who spoke the words and raised the dead
And I’ve loved you long before I set the world in motion
I know all the fears you’re feeling now
But do you remember who I am?
Do you..

Believe Me now
Believe Me here
Remember all the times I’ve told you loud and clear
I am with you
And I am for you

So believe Me now
Believe it’s true
I never have, I never will abandon you
And the God that I have always been
I will forever be
So believe Me now

I am the God who never wastes a single hurt that you endure
My words are true, and all my promises are sure
So believe Me now
Oh, believe Me now

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I didnt manage to get masking tape today so i cant exactly start packing for the new place…tmr i shall get more boxes, get masking tape and more boxes…and start packing! moving house..sigh.

and i’ve been reading the book of daniel.

somehow i felt quite ’stunned’ when the bible mentioned his dream about the tree…and his dream about the four beasts…

dumdeedum. ponder.ponder. wonder. wonder.